Sorry it has been a long while since i posted on this blog .This post is about the things that I struggle with and trouble me (deep right). I am one of those people who isolates themselves from family and, sometimes, friends. I feel as if I need to be independent or need to prove something somehow. I don’t know what it is, but I just feel as if I need to do things by myself with only my power and hold up the sky. So if someone has asked me for help or advice on something I tend to try to figure out that problem with just me and my own power. It normally doesn’t work out and I end up failing my friends’ needs. This habit has turned me inside out and changed me and I know I posted that change was good but…I don’t know what to feel anymore. I am stuck in a web that I weaved and it may not seem like a big deal in the future but right now I feel broken and helpless. I always feel as if I fail my friends, my family and sometimes even myself. So what good things will come out of this? What blessings are on their way? And to top all that off, shameful and hurtful thoughts come into my head always there to tell me that the person I am isn’t good enough and dying is the way out of it. I am sorry but…stuff those thoughts! (Excuse my language). I am sick of being ruled by myself and other people. I am sick of trying to be perfect when I know that I am not. I am sick of the web I wove. I am sick of it.
Man do I feel better…
Quick Quote: “struggles are required in order to survive in life, because in order to stand up, you gotta know what falling down is like”
With love, Naomi